I called into work today.
Between the flu I think I've had, no sleep, and my stomach being in knots, I decided I needed just a day to rest and reflect.

I haven't really cried in a long time.
I haven't had a panic attack in a long time.
I haven't had my stomach feel like it dropped out of me like that in a long time.

I've never had a woman put me into my own perspective.
Her and I had a wonderful evening.
Shes perfect in a fucked up way, thats all I can say.
I don't know how I feel about it all. I dont know what to make of things.


I've never met someone to put me into perspective like that.
and completely made me rethink who the fuck I am on that level.


I've never been scared to death and completely drawn to someone at the same time.
I'm sure it sounds stupid, but I feel like I was meant to meet her.
I was meant to be drawn to her.
Like there was meant to have something there.