Hmph

She's way too good to me.

I came home from work today to eat a quick dinner, had my insurance bills and something else on the counter, as well as a package from her.

I opened it. It was my two favorite candy bars and a pack of Malrboro Lights.

With a note saying

"Here's a few stress relievers, hope you have a great week.
Miss you."


Why have I lost my ability to really care about people?
Why have I lost my ability to give?

Why do I feel as empty as I did years ago.
But now I don't have an outlet, I don't have friends in the same boat, I don't have the reckess company of days past, and all I can do is hold it in.

I need a release.